Today was such a hard day with Anna Beth that I ended up sitting in the front seat of my van in the Kroger parking lot sobbing! Why do kid's push to the brink of insanity? I believe that she sat down in the middle of every aisle and threw a fit, then she proceeded to run away from me. She has been obnoxious for the last couple of days and I am sick to death of listening to her scream from time-out. No form of punishment is working right now and the only thing that I can do is be consistent. I must say though that my patience is wearing thin. If I did not contain self-control she would not have been safe with me today! LOL
I love her dearly and fear the idea of anything ever harming her but there are days that being her mommy is very hard. She pushes so hard to win and thus I dig my heals in even harder. We are not fighting over issues of safety but of who is in charge. Listening seems to be the biggest obstacle right now. There are times that I want to put a speaker up to her ear so she will listen. I realize that it is not a matter of listening but performing the task that I gave her. I really do understand why so many working mom's give up and let their kid's rule the home. There are times that it feels as though this would be the easiest way but I want Anna Beth to grow up with discipline and focus. I want her to understand that her disobedience hurts Jesus. I do not want to take her spirit and drive from her but teach her how to control it.
Raising her often drives me to my knees in prayer because there is nothing else that I can do! I do not want to be angry with her and I do not want to show her anything but unconditional love like my heavenly Father. I order for that to shine through I cannot teach her in my own strength. This is an impossible task without guidance from above!
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
The Wedding is over...
The wedding of Brandon and Emily Wood is finally over and we can all relax a little now! We had a great time and Anna Beth walked down the aisle like she does it everyday! We were so proud of the way she behaved. The wedding was on Saturday and that encompassed the entire day so Sunday we relaxed a bit. After sleeping in, we headed over to Emily's parents house to watch the newlywed's open their presents. That night, we made a trip to the local Ice Deli and then rested.
Monday was spent at the St Louis Zoo with Grandma and Grandpa Wood. Considering how tired Anna Beth was, she was on her best behavior and we had a great time. Her favorites at the Zoo were riding the train and the bears and penguins. After walking the Zoo for 5 hours, she was asleep before we got out of St Louis! LOL
It has been sometime since I have been able to blog and I know that there are things that I am going to regret not getting written someday. Anna Beth changes so fast and she has the funniest stories. We have tried to stay close to home as much as possible since we have and will be so busy. There has been a water fight in the front yard between Brian and I. Anna Beth ended up the wettest of all but that is nothing new. There has been new phrases that have come out of that child's mouth and there has been the usual drama at work.
Speaking of work... I really am at a loss as to what to do. I feel so loyal and yet there has been no loyalty to me. My pay is well below the average for what I do and I have to deal with feeling like the 3rd wheel on a daily basis. I love what I do but there are days that the personal relationships get difficult to deal with. I realize that these will never change and there are days that I can deal with these easily but then there are others that it is hard to swallow. I just want to feel appreciated and have not had that affirmation in over a year and a half. I have really tried to seek the Lord for what to do and I think that I have gone deaf for I am getting nothing! LOL Really though, I wonder if He has told me to move on and i have just chosen to ignore Him because it is easier to stay than to start new or does He want me to stay to teach me something new? I guess the only answer to keep listening and seeking other jobs. If the door closes then I know where I am to be.
Now for my dearest Anna Beth, wow, what a delight she is! She still cannot pronounce her L's so a "lid" is a "wib" and so forth. She comes up with the most outrageous things! She has recently begun saying, "oh, my gosh" and we are trying to break her of that quickly. We have begun to watch less and less TV because she picks things up so fast. Yesterday, her older friends from next door were busy playing with their friends from school and she was so hurt because they did not want to play with her. She truly believes that she should be able to playing the road because they do. She does not understand that she is only 3 years old vs, their 5 & 7. Anna Beth has also picked up a southern drawl. I am not sure where she gets it as Brian is from Colorado and I have never spoken with a heavy southern accent. My only guess is that she gained it from school. "Ice Cream" sounds more like "Iiiiice creeam." somehow she adds extra syllables to every word. It sounds incredibly funny coming out of her little mouth!
That is about all there is going on in our lives right now! We are on the count down for vacation and looking forward to getting away from work for an entire week. I have big plans for Brian's Father's day as well that should be great fun!
Monday was spent at the St Louis Zoo with Grandma and Grandpa Wood. Considering how tired Anna Beth was, she was on her best behavior and we had a great time. Her favorites at the Zoo were riding the train and the bears and penguins. After walking the Zoo for 5 hours, she was asleep before we got out of St Louis! LOL
It has been sometime since I have been able to blog and I know that there are things that I am going to regret not getting written someday. Anna Beth changes so fast and she has the funniest stories. We have tried to stay close to home as much as possible since we have and will be so busy. There has been a water fight in the front yard between Brian and I. Anna Beth ended up the wettest of all but that is nothing new. There has been new phrases that have come out of that child's mouth and there has been the usual drama at work.
Speaking of work... I really am at a loss as to what to do. I feel so loyal and yet there has been no loyalty to me. My pay is well below the average for what I do and I have to deal with feeling like the 3rd wheel on a daily basis. I love what I do but there are days that the personal relationships get difficult to deal with. I realize that these will never change and there are days that I can deal with these easily but then there are others that it is hard to swallow. I just want to feel appreciated and have not had that affirmation in over a year and a half. I have really tried to seek the Lord for what to do and I think that I have gone deaf for I am getting nothing! LOL Really though, I wonder if He has told me to move on and i have just chosen to ignore Him because it is easier to stay than to start new or does He want me to stay to teach me something new? I guess the only answer to keep listening and seeking other jobs. If the door closes then I know where I am to be.
Now for my dearest Anna Beth, wow, what a delight she is! She still cannot pronounce her L's so a "lid" is a "wib" and so forth. She comes up with the most outrageous things! She has recently begun saying, "oh, my gosh" and we are trying to break her of that quickly. We have begun to watch less and less TV because she picks things up so fast. Yesterday, her older friends from next door were busy playing with their friends from school and she was so hurt because they did not want to play with her. She truly believes that she should be able to playing the road because they do. She does not understand that she is only 3 years old vs, their 5 & 7. Anna Beth has also picked up a southern drawl. I am not sure where she gets it as Brian is from Colorado and I have never spoken with a heavy southern accent. My only guess is that she gained it from school. "Ice Cream" sounds more like "Iiiiice creeam." somehow she adds extra syllables to every word. It sounds incredibly funny coming out of her little mouth!
That is about all there is going on in our lives right now! We are on the count down for vacation and looking forward to getting away from work for an entire week. I have big plans for Brian's Father's day as well that should be great fun!
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Mother's Day
It has been a long time since I have actually sat down and written about one of my days but I could not resist filling you in on my perfect Mother's Day. I have just about one of the sweetest husbands ever and he planned the perfect day.
Brian got me up on Saturday and told me to get ready, we went and dropped Anna Beth off at my sister's house and then we took of for my mystery date. We arrived at the Opry Mills Mall and Brian informed me that we were going on a Dinner cruise aboard the General Jackson. Could he be any sweeter? Just the 2 of us, on a mid-day cruise! We had 2 hours of talking and just enjoying being together.
After the cruise, we headed back to Denise and Brad's where my mother and dad had arrived. We ate dinner together, gave Nana her birdhouses and just had fun. It truly was a very sweet time and I thank my husband for how hard he works to make me feel special as a woman and a mother. I never expected to treated with such love and respect and am grateful for the way he loves me.
Brian got me up on Saturday and told me to get ready, we went and dropped Anna Beth off at my sister's house and then we took of for my mystery date. We arrived at the Opry Mills Mall and Brian informed me that we were going on a Dinner cruise aboard the General Jackson. Could he be any sweeter? Just the 2 of us, on a mid-day cruise! We had 2 hours of talking and just enjoying being together.
After the cruise, we headed back to Denise and Brad's where my mother and dad had arrived. We ate dinner together, gave Nana her birdhouses and just had fun. It truly was a very sweet time and I thank my husband for how hard he works to make me feel special as a woman and a mother. I never expected to treated with such love and respect and am grateful for the way he loves me.
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