Yesterday I was diagnosed with an aggressive form of breast cancer and so a new journey has begun. We have cried, made jokes and contemplated the future but the one thing that we have not done is ask God, "Why us?" I have learned several things in the last couple of years and one of them being that God uses everything for His glory.
Looking back over the last few months, I can see God working towards that phone call yesterday. It all started with Brian being given a job at the Vanderbilt Cancer Center. From there, I received a job that I believed was "THE ONE" when in reality is was just another step.
That day, sitting in the conference room listening to the plan, wondering why God allowed this to happen and then moments later having FBI burst through the door, weapon ready was just a little blurb in my world. At the time, it felt huge but in reality is was just God setting the stage for the next step. The next step was another job offer within 24 hours. Part-time but a blessing non-the-less. A job that would allow flexibility and a work environment that was encouraging.
During all of this, I found a lump. I just could not let it go and mentioned it at a routine doctor visit. The doctor listened to me and ordered a mammogram the same day. That day has changed the "normal" for our family for months to come. That lump turned out to be nothing but the tumor lurking in the shadows was discovered. After a life-long dream vacation to Disney World we returned to face what God had laid out before us. A biopsy and a diagnosis.
I have no idea what is to come but I have no fear. It is so obvious that God has been preparing the way that I cannot help but be grateful. I grieve and I mourn but there is no question that God knew I was ready for this. That my family was ready. We are ready for that special fellowship with our Father as we climb in His arms. I have had several people tell me that they do not understand why God has asked so much of us in the last couple of years but to them I say, "it is an opportunity to lose more of me in HIM." I know there will be moments in the next several months that I will forget these words. I will grieve the silly things, like losing my hair but in the end my time with God will be worth every strand. This is an opportunity for my daughter to watch our responses to what God has asked of us. We are called according to His purpose and for His glory so with that in mind, I begin a new journey of hope and trust.
Friday, July 30, 2010
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
The "Little" vs the "Big"
Today peace and encouragement have alluded me. It is not the events of the last few months but the here and now that cause my heart to waver. God has been so faithful through the job transition with Brian, the job loss, the year of tough parenting and the recent break-in. We have watched in wonder as He has used people in our lives to provide and encourage. Every day my heart is at peace knowing that God cares for His children and I need not fear the unknown because He has prepared the way.
The things that break me are the day to day battles. Not enough time and overwhelming work. Making choices to let things go to spend time with my family. This means letting the laundry sit, the bathrooms building dirt and the big meals left un-cooked. While they go undone they are never far from my mind and the feeling of failure in these areas. There is never enough time to sleep, work 10 hour days and care for the family in the ways that I desire to do so.
Tonight, I came home and chose to take a few minutes for myself. With this comes guilt because there are hugs to give and things to do. But tonight I chose to rest with my Father. I grabbed my Oswald Chambers book and Bible and sat to listen. I had 15 minutes at best with Anna Beth anxious to share her day, so I dove in. The text was on "Wrestling Before God" Based on Ephesians 6:13 & 18 "Take up the whole armor of God... praying always..." The part that impacted me the most was the distinction between God's perfect will and permissive will. My family is living in the permissive will of God of late and through this God has taught us much about joy and faith. We have been tested in the areas of physical need, mental exhaustion and spiritual brokenness. I have sought the face of my God more this year than in several years past praying for God to care for the large problems that "I" cannot handle. Constantly I have sought to find the lessons in the tests. Tonight, I realized the test that I have failed to see... "the little things"
"The Little Things" I keep as my own burdens because I do not want to bother God with things so trite. I skip a piece of Armor because I do not think that I will need it that day or I skip praying always but pray as needs arise. My focus becomes clouded with needs, wants and desires. I feel justified worrying and stressing over them because they are not really for me after all but my family that surrounds me. Oswald stated... "Put up a glorious fight and you will find yourself empowered with His strength." God never intends for us to go into battle unarmed and He NEVER intended for us to go alone! I sense, that God sits waiting and watching, aching to lift my burden that appears to small to even bother with.
My test has not been in the "big" things because those are easy to trust Him with. The test is in trusting Him with my tears, chores and frustrations. Daily surrender to and in doing so completeness in Christ!
The things that break me are the day to day battles. Not enough time and overwhelming work. Making choices to let things go to spend time with my family. This means letting the laundry sit, the bathrooms building dirt and the big meals left un-cooked. While they go undone they are never far from my mind and the feeling of failure in these areas. There is never enough time to sleep, work 10 hour days and care for the family in the ways that I desire to do so.
Tonight, I came home and chose to take a few minutes for myself. With this comes guilt because there are hugs to give and things to do. But tonight I chose to rest with my Father. I grabbed my Oswald Chambers book and Bible and sat to listen. I had 15 minutes at best with Anna Beth anxious to share her day, so I dove in. The text was on "Wrestling Before God" Based on Ephesians 6:13 & 18 "Take up the whole armor of God... praying always..." The part that impacted me the most was the distinction between God's perfect will and permissive will. My family is living in the permissive will of God of late and through this God has taught us much about joy and faith. We have been tested in the areas of physical need, mental exhaustion and spiritual brokenness. I have sought the face of my God more this year than in several years past praying for God to care for the large problems that "I" cannot handle. Constantly I have sought to find the lessons in the tests. Tonight, I realized the test that I have failed to see... "the little things"
"The Little Things" I keep as my own burdens because I do not want to bother God with things so trite. I skip a piece of Armor because I do not think that I will need it that day or I skip praying always but pray as needs arise. My focus becomes clouded with needs, wants and desires. I feel justified worrying and stressing over them because they are not really for me after all but my family that surrounds me. Oswald stated... "Put up a glorious fight and you will find yourself empowered with His strength." God never intends for us to go into battle unarmed and He NEVER intended for us to go alone! I sense, that God sits waiting and watching, aching to lift my burden that appears to small to even bother with.
My test has not been in the "big" things because those are easy to trust Him with. The test is in trusting Him with my tears, chores and frustrations. Daily surrender to and in doing so completeness in Christ!
Friday, September 4, 2009
Faith and Promies
What a fabulous day with my Father! This day was to just be a day is rest, relaxation and prep for family coming in this weekend but it has become something so much more important than that. A day of just listening...
I got up this morning as we usually do and got Anna Beth and Brian out the door for the day. Usually I am leaving at the same time as the 2 of them but today was about me. Sent them off and laid back down for just a bit just thinking. Finally decided it was time to hop up, get a bite to eat and start my house cleaning. I left the TV and music off on purpose to simply enjoy the peace and began to pray. My prayer time is usually stuffed into the commute time that I have to and from work and my Bible time is spent reading scripture on the Internet during lunch but today was different... today it was not scheduled!
I slowly stopped TALKING to God and just started LISTENING. Sitting on the side of my tub with sponge in hand, I heard God say... have you missed cleaning this incredible tub that I gave to you? "Well yes I have Lord! It is really relaxing to just clean my house" was my response. Next He asked, "Have you missed just playing with your family over the last 6 months?" Tears began to trickle down my face as I admitted that I had. I stopped cleaning and just listened for His next question. "Do you miss this peace and quiet?" Tears began to really flow and last God asked, My child, have you missed moments like this with me?" Sitting on the side of the tub, sobs racking my body, I poured out my grief, pain, frustration, and disappointments to my Father. I told Him of how much this job has taken away from me and my family and I told Him of my desire to be able to work part-time.
I climbed from the tub and grabbed my Bible and my Hymnal and laid on the bed ready for comfort. I opened the Bible to Romans 4, Our pastor recently talked about Abraham's faith in God for a son and so I began at verse 20... "Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God. Being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he promised." I never got past verse 20 & 21!
Next I went to my hymnal and opened to one of my favorite old hymns, "Be Still, My Soul" The first verse goes like this... Be still my soul! The Lord is on thy side; Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain; Leave to thy God to order and provide; In every change He faithfully will remain. Be still my soul! thy best, thy heavenly Friend Thro' thorny ways leads to a joyful end.
This is my promise from God! I can go back to work on Wednesday not with dread or fear but with peace knowing that I have HIS promise. I do not know how much longer the pain will endure but I do know that it will come to an end and God will keep His promises to me.
I got up this morning as we usually do and got Anna Beth and Brian out the door for the day. Usually I am leaving at the same time as the 2 of them but today was about me. Sent them off and laid back down for just a bit just thinking. Finally decided it was time to hop up, get a bite to eat and start my house cleaning. I left the TV and music off on purpose to simply enjoy the peace and began to pray. My prayer time is usually stuffed into the commute time that I have to and from work and my Bible time is spent reading scripture on the Internet during lunch but today was different... today it was not scheduled!
I slowly stopped TALKING to God and just started LISTENING. Sitting on the side of my tub with sponge in hand, I heard God say... have you missed cleaning this incredible tub that I gave to you? "Well yes I have Lord! It is really relaxing to just clean my house" was my response. Next He asked, "Have you missed just playing with your family over the last 6 months?" Tears began to trickle down my face as I admitted that I had. I stopped cleaning and just listened for His next question. "Do you miss this peace and quiet?" Tears began to really flow and last God asked, My child, have you missed moments like this with me?" Sitting on the side of the tub, sobs racking my body, I poured out my grief, pain, frustration, and disappointments to my Father. I told Him of how much this job has taken away from me and my family and I told Him of my desire to be able to work part-time.
I climbed from the tub and grabbed my Bible and my Hymnal and laid on the bed ready for comfort. I opened the Bible to Romans 4, Our pastor recently talked about Abraham's faith in God for a son and so I began at verse 20... "Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God. Being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he promised." I never got past verse 20 & 21!
Next I went to my hymnal and opened to one of my favorite old hymns, "Be Still, My Soul" The first verse goes like this... Be still my soul! The Lord is on thy side; Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain; Leave to thy God to order and provide; In every change He faithfully will remain. Be still my soul! thy best, thy heavenly Friend Thro' thorny ways leads to a joyful end.
This is my promise from God! I can go back to work on Wednesday not with dread or fear but with peace knowing that I have HIS promise. I do not know how much longer the pain will endure but I do know that it will come to an end and God will keep His promises to me.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Faithfulness Untold
It has been so long since I have blogged that I feel a bit timid doing so now. It is so hard to know where to start as so much has transpired but I will do my best to try.
First, I will start with Anna Beth and the changes we have seen in her. There is no secret that she has been a challenge to raise but the rewards have been huge. She turned 4 in March and I was hoping that this would be the golden age. That all of our hard work would come together. I believe my expectation was that it would happen within 24 hours of her birthday but this was not the case. After a couple of months, we began to see a maturing in our little girl. Not just in the area of obedience but in her relationship with the Lord. Anna Beth had told us back in October of 2008 that she had asked Jesus to live in her heart. At 3 years, it is hard for mommies and daddies to trust that little ones understand this concept. Over the last few months, we have began to see changes. Anna Beth recognizes that Jesus is with us at all times, that He is aware of all our thoughts, words and actions. She understands that her sin hurts Him and she has to talk to Him to have a relationship. There are times that she actually shames me. Anna Beth's relationship with Jesus is so pure and trusting.
The car has become a place of prayer for our little family. Most mornings, Brian or I (the deliverer of the child to school) will have prayer time with Anna Beth. We pray for each of us to have a joyful day, and that we will make Jesus happy with the way we treat others. A few weeks ago, after picking Anna Beth up from school, I mentioned that daddy was having a hard day. Anna Beth informed me that she was going to thank Jesus and ask Him to help her daddy. She proceeded to close her eyes and pray her little heart out. Anna Beth has discovered one of the things that I find hardest to do.... Pray when I have a need. LOL It was so delightful to see my girl seeking her Jesus on behalf of her family. She has done the same for me when my days have been hard.
One morning a couple of weeks ago, Brian went to retrieve our sleeping child from her bed to began the morning wake-up routine. As he picked her up, which is getting harder to do, the first thing she said was, "I had a dream about Jesus!" Her face was full of contentment with a full smile. Did Jesus talk to our girl in her dreams? Did He make Himself real to her? These are answers I will never know but what a testimony of the special relationship that my 4 year old has with her Savior. I am a very grateful mommy! I am grateful for a child that is sensitive to the things of God at such a young age. I am grateful for the people that my family is surrounded by, that teach and enforce the same principles that we hold dear. I am grateful that God held our hands as parents through many doubts, fears and frustration and we are seeing the fruit of discipline and seeds.
Second, is the life of Brian and Jenny! LOL What a roller coaster it has been since February. In the 5 and a half years that Brian and I have been married, there has been very few trials we have had to face as a couple. There was the transition of my moving to Nashville but that was fairly easy. There was the traumatic birth of Anna Beth, 18 days in NICU, coming within 24 hours of heart surgery and going 10 days without holding my baby. But even that only brought us closer than ever! There was days where money was tight, paying off our credit card debt and purchasing 2 homes while selling mine back in Jackson. That too, just brought us closer! Then this year smacked us down in a way I never expected. As many of you know, Brian and I have worked together at the same place for most of our married life. We have loved it and while for many this can be difficult, we enjoyed it. There was the flirting as we passed in the warehouse, the occasional lunch in the lunch room together and there was always a sense to work harder and be above reproach. In February all of this changed...
Our company was purchased and many changes began to take place. Changes that while, helped the business in many ways, were done harshly and in hurtful ways. I had been working 30 hours, 3 days a week and was forced to go full-time or look somewhere else for work. This was a hard transition for our family. Since before Anna Beth was born, I had only worked part-time. Brian was placed in a position that did not come naturally for him but he faced the challenge. As the economy began to take it's toll on the business, there were hard days ahead. Our business went through 3 major systems conversions in one year. The last one was very difficult and not prepared as much as needed. While needed, this conversion became a hindrance to daily work activity. Brian, as the customer support manager, took the brunt of this fall. His team, handled the angry customers and the fall-out when things went wrong. Brian is not a confrontational person and this began to wear on him. We made the decision, as couple that he should began to look for other work.
There were many reasons for this decisions... this position was not what Brian was comfortable with, we had all of our eggs in one basket and that can be scary at times, Brian and his new boss did not communicate well and this caused much friction, again, not something Brian handles well. The search began and I was fearful. Finding a job in this economy can be difficult and scary. I was grateful that we both had jobs and looking elsewhere seemed risky. As the tension mounted, Brian's search became frantic. Almost every night was spent at the computer, applying for jobs. This took it's toll on our little family. Brian pulled away in full survival mode and I took over the running of the house and all emotional support for him and Anna Beth. As we all know, I am usually the emotional one so being the strong one became alot of hard work. I also began to compartmentalize my feelings and our marriage went silent. We both knew it was but for a season and knew that we would time find for us at the end of all this.
The season lasted longer than we thought! LOL One day, after a very difficult talk with Brian's boss, Brian called me and told me what happened. I knew that for some time Brian was ready to just quit and spend all of his energy looking for a job. As his wife, I did not feel the time was right until this particular day. Over the phone, I said, "It is time, come home and write your resignation." The job had taken too much from our family and it was time to put us first. Both of us had prayed much and with that decision we found instant peace.
Peace is great and all but it does not pay the bills! LOL I did not understand how we were going to pay the bills or would we lose our house? Many questions ran through our minds but all the while, peace was worth the cost. I stated during that evening, as Brian wrote his resignation, "While we have believed that God wanted us to trust Him by waiting, maybe He just wants is to step out in faith."
Brian's last 2 weeks of work flew by and I worried about how his leaving would affect my position there. Brian's last working day was Friday, July 3rd. On Thursday he was contacted by someone that had seen his skills on craigslist. Brian sent them his resume that same day and they contacted him again on Monday asking for an interview. The interview was done on Tuesday and by Tuesday night, Brian had a job! My husband only went 2 days without a job! To this day, I am amazed at how God worked. We have had many friends out of work for months and we fully expected the same. God rewarded our faith! I still get tears when I think of what God did for us.
Since the job change, I have gotten my husband back and I was able to go back to being the emotionally needy one. LOL My position was not affected at all and in fact became easier without having to worry about Brian there. I am still at the old job and there are many hard and long days but I know that trusting my God is my only option. There are so many days that I hand my burden over to Him and the next day I take it back. I am human and my shear need drives me back to Him! Every night of exhausted tears, He is there. Every day of hurtful words, He is there. Every victory, He is there. My God has held my family in a special way this year.
I realize that our trial, to some, may seem very small but the result was the same. The trial was but an avenue for which to grow our relationship with our God. I weep as I write this knowing what a deep prayer life my husband I have developed. Our relationship with each other during that time became mostly our prayer life. What Satan could have used to destroy a marriage, God used to strengthen a marriage.
There is no easy way to end this except to thank those of you that have walked through this with us and continue to walk and pray for me as I press on. I know that my only requirement from God in all of this, is that I remain faithful and work with a spirit of excellence. (LA term for some of you! LOL) I hope that our little trial and testimony of faith is an encouragement to some that are walking through a trial of your own.
First, I will start with Anna Beth and the changes we have seen in her. There is no secret that she has been a challenge to raise but the rewards have been huge. She turned 4 in March and I was hoping that this would be the golden age. That all of our hard work would come together. I believe my expectation was that it would happen within 24 hours of her birthday but this was not the case. After a couple of months, we began to see a maturing in our little girl. Not just in the area of obedience but in her relationship with the Lord. Anna Beth had told us back in October of 2008 that she had asked Jesus to live in her heart. At 3 years, it is hard for mommies and daddies to trust that little ones understand this concept. Over the last few months, we have began to see changes. Anna Beth recognizes that Jesus is with us at all times, that He is aware of all our thoughts, words and actions. She understands that her sin hurts Him and she has to talk to Him to have a relationship. There are times that she actually shames me. Anna Beth's relationship with Jesus is so pure and trusting.
The car has become a place of prayer for our little family. Most mornings, Brian or I (the deliverer of the child to school) will have prayer time with Anna Beth. We pray for each of us to have a joyful day, and that we will make Jesus happy with the way we treat others. A few weeks ago, after picking Anna Beth up from school, I mentioned that daddy was having a hard day. Anna Beth informed me that she was going to thank Jesus and ask Him to help her daddy. She proceeded to close her eyes and pray her little heart out. Anna Beth has discovered one of the things that I find hardest to do.... Pray when I have a need. LOL It was so delightful to see my girl seeking her Jesus on behalf of her family. She has done the same for me when my days have been hard.
One morning a couple of weeks ago, Brian went to retrieve our sleeping child from her bed to began the morning wake-up routine. As he picked her up, which is getting harder to do, the first thing she said was, "I had a dream about Jesus!" Her face was full of contentment with a full smile. Did Jesus talk to our girl in her dreams? Did He make Himself real to her? These are answers I will never know but what a testimony of the special relationship that my 4 year old has with her Savior. I am a very grateful mommy! I am grateful for a child that is sensitive to the things of God at such a young age. I am grateful for the people that my family is surrounded by, that teach and enforce the same principles that we hold dear. I am grateful that God held our hands as parents through many doubts, fears and frustration and we are seeing the fruit of discipline and seeds.
Second, is the life of Brian and Jenny! LOL What a roller coaster it has been since February. In the 5 and a half years that Brian and I have been married, there has been very few trials we have had to face as a couple. There was the transition of my moving to Nashville but that was fairly easy. There was the traumatic birth of Anna Beth, 18 days in NICU, coming within 24 hours of heart surgery and going 10 days without holding my baby. But even that only brought us closer than ever! There was days where money was tight, paying off our credit card debt and purchasing 2 homes while selling mine back in Jackson. That too, just brought us closer! Then this year smacked us down in a way I never expected. As many of you know, Brian and I have worked together at the same place for most of our married life. We have loved it and while for many this can be difficult, we enjoyed it. There was the flirting as we passed in the warehouse, the occasional lunch in the lunch room together and there was always a sense to work harder and be above reproach. In February all of this changed...
Our company was purchased and many changes began to take place. Changes that while, helped the business in many ways, were done harshly and in hurtful ways. I had been working 30 hours, 3 days a week and was forced to go full-time or look somewhere else for work. This was a hard transition for our family. Since before Anna Beth was born, I had only worked part-time. Brian was placed in a position that did not come naturally for him but he faced the challenge. As the economy began to take it's toll on the business, there were hard days ahead. Our business went through 3 major systems conversions in one year. The last one was very difficult and not prepared as much as needed. While needed, this conversion became a hindrance to daily work activity. Brian, as the customer support manager, took the brunt of this fall. His team, handled the angry customers and the fall-out when things went wrong. Brian is not a confrontational person and this began to wear on him. We made the decision, as couple that he should began to look for other work.
There were many reasons for this decisions... this position was not what Brian was comfortable with, we had all of our eggs in one basket and that can be scary at times, Brian and his new boss did not communicate well and this caused much friction, again, not something Brian handles well. The search began and I was fearful. Finding a job in this economy can be difficult and scary. I was grateful that we both had jobs and looking elsewhere seemed risky. As the tension mounted, Brian's search became frantic. Almost every night was spent at the computer, applying for jobs. This took it's toll on our little family. Brian pulled away in full survival mode and I took over the running of the house and all emotional support for him and Anna Beth. As we all know, I am usually the emotional one so being the strong one became alot of hard work. I also began to compartmentalize my feelings and our marriage went silent. We both knew it was but for a season and knew that we would time find for us at the end of all this.
The season lasted longer than we thought! LOL One day, after a very difficult talk with Brian's boss, Brian called me and told me what happened. I knew that for some time Brian was ready to just quit and spend all of his energy looking for a job. As his wife, I did not feel the time was right until this particular day. Over the phone, I said, "It is time, come home and write your resignation." The job had taken too much from our family and it was time to put us first. Both of us had prayed much and with that decision we found instant peace.
Peace is great and all but it does not pay the bills! LOL I did not understand how we were going to pay the bills or would we lose our house? Many questions ran through our minds but all the while, peace was worth the cost. I stated during that evening, as Brian wrote his resignation, "While we have believed that God wanted us to trust Him by waiting, maybe He just wants is to step out in faith."
Brian's last 2 weeks of work flew by and I worried about how his leaving would affect my position there. Brian's last working day was Friday, July 3rd. On Thursday he was contacted by someone that had seen his skills on craigslist. Brian sent them his resume that same day and they contacted him again on Monday asking for an interview. The interview was done on Tuesday and by Tuesday night, Brian had a job! My husband only went 2 days without a job! To this day, I am amazed at how God worked. We have had many friends out of work for months and we fully expected the same. God rewarded our faith! I still get tears when I think of what God did for us.
Since the job change, I have gotten my husband back and I was able to go back to being the emotionally needy one. LOL My position was not affected at all and in fact became easier without having to worry about Brian there. I am still at the old job and there are many hard and long days but I know that trusting my God is my only option. There are so many days that I hand my burden over to Him and the next day I take it back. I am human and my shear need drives me back to Him! Every night of exhausted tears, He is there. Every day of hurtful words, He is there. Every victory, He is there. My God has held my family in a special way this year.
I realize that our trial, to some, may seem very small but the result was the same. The trial was but an avenue for which to grow our relationship with our God. I weep as I write this knowing what a deep prayer life my husband I have developed. Our relationship with each other during that time became mostly our prayer life. What Satan could have used to destroy a marriage, God used to strengthen a marriage.
There is no easy way to end this except to thank those of you that have walked through this with us and continue to walk and pray for me as I press on. I know that my only requirement from God in all of this, is that I remain faithful and work with a spirit of excellence. (LA term for some of you! LOL) I hope that our little trial and testimony of faith is an encouragement to some that are walking through a trial of your own.
Monday, May 4, 2009
Miracle Awakening dated- 4-4-07
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
Miracle Awakening
I work 3 days a week and on the days I work Anna Beth goes to a pre-school. On those days the usual routine is for Brian or I to fetch her from her bed.This way she can lay in ours while we shower so that she can wake up slowly.
She will lay in our bed with her eyes closed, appearing to be completely sound asleep. However, as soon as we turn on the TV to Calliou (her favorite morning show) she will sit straight up in the bed and stare at the TV. It is like we injected black coffee into her veins! She never says a word unless we begin to actually get her ready for the day at which point she will start to scream. As soon as she is dressed she gets completely quiet agian and will not even acknowledge us until Calliou goes off unless of course we are talking to her about the show.
What kind of secret messages are they sending to our kids through the TV that we cannot hear? LOL I am fully expecting her to one day tell me that she has to go to Calliou's mother ship and won't be home for dinner!
Miracle Awakening
I work 3 days a week and on the days I work Anna Beth goes to a pre-school. On those days the usual routine is for Brian or I to fetch her from her bed.This way she can lay in ours while we shower so that she can wake up slowly.
She will lay in our bed with her eyes closed, appearing to be completely sound asleep. However, as soon as we turn on the TV to Calliou (her favorite morning show) she will sit straight up in the bed and stare at the TV. It is like we injected black coffee into her veins! She never says a word unless we begin to actually get her ready for the day at which point she will start to scream. As soon as she is dressed she gets completely quiet agian and will not even acknowledge us until Calliou goes off unless of course we are talking to her about the show.
What kind of secret messages are they sending to our kids through the TV that we cannot hear? LOL I am fully expecting her to one day tell me that she has to go to Calliou's mother ship and won't be home for dinner!
Great Husband Material dated- 4-6-07
Friday, April 06, 2007
Great husband material!
I work 3 days a week at 10+ hours a day, therefore I usually come home from work exhausted and not really ready to face a hungry 2 year old and husband. Not to mention the housework that awaits! It never fails, as I am climbing into bed at night my husband sweetly asks, "Do I have any clean jeans for in the morning?" This is the point where my hormones start to rage and my husband runs and hides in the closet! Not really but it he knew what I was thinking he might! Especially since we usually get to bed around 11 pm every night.
Just when my head is about to start spinning around, I come home to find that my sweet husband has cleaned the downstairs, folded laundry and started supper. The supper part is the most amazing part since the only thing that he can cook is tomato soup and grilled cheese, frozen pizza or canned pasta with ketchup. It is at this point that I sit down and start to cry and all he does is sit down next to me, pull me over onto his chest and rub my hair.
I really did marry the best husband material there is and am daily grateful that he found me!
Great husband material!
I work 3 days a week at 10+ hours a day, therefore I usually come home from work exhausted and not really ready to face a hungry 2 year old and husband. Not to mention the housework that awaits! It never fails, as I am climbing into bed at night my husband sweetly asks, "Do I have any clean jeans for in the morning?" This is the point where my hormones start to rage and my husband runs and hides in the closet! Not really but it he knew what I was thinking he might! Especially since we usually get to bed around 11 pm every night.
Just when my head is about to start spinning around, I come home to find that my sweet husband has cleaned the downstairs, folded laundry and started supper. The supper part is the most amazing part since the only thing that he can cook is tomato soup and grilled cheese, frozen pizza or canned pasta with ketchup. It is at this point that I sit down and start to cry and all he does is sit down next to me, pull me over onto his chest and rub my hair.
I really did marry the best husband material there is and am daily grateful that he found me!
Easter Egg Surprise dated- 4-9-07
Monday, April 09, 2007
Easter Egg Surprise
On Friday night I drove home in the snow! It is crazy! Seeing snow 2 days before Easter. I was wondering if I was going to have to storm the attic to find some winter clothes for Anna Beth to wear to the Easter Egg hunt the next day.
I did manage to find clothes for her to wear to the egg hunt but they were too small so her little legs just froze between her boots and her pants leg. She kept sticking her hands into our coats to try and stay warm. She just looked miserable until she realized she could pick up those Easter eggs! She smiled so big and charged ahead with her egg mission in mind. She picked up eggs and was tossing them into her basket so fast that they would fly out the other side. Brian had to walk behind her picking up the eggs that missed their intended target.
After the egg hunt we moved on to the inflatable rides. She was bound and determinded to go up a giant inflatable slide. She climbed up almost half way, looked back and tumbled down. Brian had to help her get to the top because even after her fall she had to go on the big slide. After arriving at the top, she realized that things can be larger than they appear! LOL She took one look and screamed all the way down.
This was also Anna Beth's first year to decorate eggs. This was an interesting process and also very dangerous. We have carpet in our dining room and I was just sure that I was going to end up with bright blue spots on my burber carpet. Anna loved to re-dye the eggs that we already colored. It was not good enough to gently drop them back into the dye. NO! It was like watching Peyton Manning hurling a football half way down the field!
Easter morning arrived and Anna Beth saw her basket sitting beside her bed. The first words out of her mouth was, "Wow". By the time that we had left for church she had had a chocolate breakfast and was doing her best to eat nothing but chocolate all day! I guess it helped her because she made it through Sunday school, church and lunch out before she crashed on the way home. Upon arriving home I managed to change her diaper, undress her and get her in the bed without her ever waking up. As soon as she did wake up at 5:15 that evening she pointed to her chest and said, "Oh, clothes off!"
Another holiday through the eyes of our girl and more memories to tuck away for future giggles and conversations!
Easter Egg Surprise
On Friday night I drove home in the snow! It is crazy! Seeing snow 2 days before Easter. I was wondering if I was going to have to storm the attic to find some winter clothes for Anna Beth to wear to the Easter Egg hunt the next day.
I did manage to find clothes for her to wear to the egg hunt but they were too small so her little legs just froze between her boots and her pants leg. She kept sticking her hands into our coats to try and stay warm. She just looked miserable until she realized she could pick up those Easter eggs! She smiled so big and charged ahead with her egg mission in mind. She picked up eggs and was tossing them into her basket so fast that they would fly out the other side. Brian had to walk behind her picking up the eggs that missed their intended target.
After the egg hunt we moved on to the inflatable rides. She was bound and determinded to go up a giant inflatable slide. She climbed up almost half way, looked back and tumbled down. Brian had to help her get to the top because even after her fall she had to go on the big slide. After arriving at the top, she realized that things can be larger than they appear! LOL She took one look and screamed all the way down.
This was also Anna Beth's first year to decorate eggs. This was an interesting process and also very dangerous. We have carpet in our dining room and I was just sure that I was going to end up with bright blue spots on my burber carpet. Anna loved to re-dye the eggs that we already colored. It was not good enough to gently drop them back into the dye. NO! It was like watching Peyton Manning hurling a football half way down the field!
Easter morning arrived and Anna Beth saw her basket sitting beside her bed. The first words out of her mouth was, "Wow". By the time that we had left for church she had had a chocolate breakfast and was doing her best to eat nothing but chocolate all day! I guess it helped her because she made it through Sunday school, church and lunch out before she crashed on the way home. Upon arriving home I managed to change her diaper, undress her and get her in the bed without her ever waking up. As soon as she did wake up at 5:15 that evening she pointed to her chest and said, "Oh, clothes off!"
Another holiday through the eyes of our girl and more memories to tuck away for future giggles and conversations!
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